Possible partial leaving, lot to say, sorry about how long it is

[Logan_Shadowclaw]

This is not a venting thread and is not in any way said in an angry tone or anything, bear with it, even if it seems a bit jumbled, I am doing the best I can at the time being.

Well, it seems that I will not be able to be adding anything constructive to the site, so I think I may leave for a while, if not for good. No this has nothing to do with me being demoted from the moderator position in the rage quit sense, rather it is the reason for my leaving in the sense that it showed me that all I really do is sit and put my two cents in when I should just be ignoring the situation or should have dealt with it more aggressively. To add to it, as some of you know now, I have been slowly falling apart from a failed relationship where I was blinded and apparently being used, should have seen that coming after the second engagement to her fell through but I guess I am just a fool all around.

Yes, I am very sad to have to go, but being demoted, while actually not that big of an issue, made me break down and I even harassed someone I consider a good friend that tried to help me through the breakup and keep me together to the point of her ignoring me, and that tells me I am not in any state of mind to be here, because I do not want to cause any more drama than what this thread may cause, even though I am not trying to cause any with this.

I thought I could hold myself together, but it appears that I was very wrong and may not be able to hold it together very well, if at all, in the near future, seeing as I pretty much am just getting berated constantly by family for not trying to make my ex change her mind, when my family did nothing but talk poorly of her when we were together. Without even a friend to help me through this I don't think I will get to my old self any time soon.

I may come on and sit in chat and post here in the forums, but I don't know if I will be doing much other than small things, if I even do that, I just feel like I don't know much of anything right now other than what I am saying now, and even now I think I am saying two different things, neither following any kind of logic or reason and just thrown out there.

I am not trying to make excuses for my failures or trying to make anyone feel sorry for me, its just me trying to explain why I am leaving, if I am leaving, heck I just don't even know anymore. I just completely lost anything else I was going to say, even though that is most likely a good thing, most of you bored or thinking "ugh, what an ass, shut up and just take your drama, emo ass and gtfo", most likely the latter.

In either case I will be online for tonight, maybe tomorrow as well so that anyone that wants to talk to me to say goodbye or anything else can. Sorry again for those that I fell apart on and went off on today, it was wrong of me to do so.

[Aaryn Skychaser]

Hey buddy, times get rough for all of us. Take the time you need to sort things out, and you know you'll be welcome back here anytime.

And if you decide to stay, then we'll look forward to seeing you on forums or in the chat!

[Nellie O.]

Ditto what Aaryn said... I'm really sorry LoLo. 

[Anastashia Sage]

I hope you come back. We are go through rough patches but life isn't meant to be easy, dear. I am sorry that you have been going through alot and I haven't been much of any help. 

Either way, Message me on msn anytime. I always want to help my friends. Things will get better.

[Maralah]

Sorry to see you leaving so soon after having welcomed me here, Logan, but I hope things sort themselves out for you.  :/

[Kozack]

I was a mod in the old F-W, I was the "Idea guy" always coming up with all sorts of different nick nacks to help improve things, even came up with our main chat rooms name and back-story.

You shouldn't chalk up usefulness to a site being a reason to leave, you should use the social interaction between yourself and others.

You sort of made it sound like moderating was the only reason you were here, and while your saying a breakup is causing you personal hell, you should realize that being around others is often a good thing to help with the healing process.

though I shouldn't be analyzing. Have a nice life with whatever you are going to be doing

[Logan_Shadowclaw]

Nice to know you completely disregarded what I said about it NOT being my demotion from mod status and turning it into some sort attack on my personal character as to why I was here in the first place. I came here not even knowing there were no mods at the time and applied a few days later, my being a moderator had nothing to do with me wanting to be here. As to how you throw everything I say in my face in the completely opposite way I really appreciate that Kozack.

[Sabata_McCloud]

Don't mean to interrupt a personal thread here but let's keep the attacks off the site.  I know you're upset, Logan, but you still need to follow the rules.