Looks like Im getting a divorce I didnt know things were this bad I love her Im numb its like the last 3 years of my life were a lie
Life sucks sometimes. It's so easy to lose hope, and so hard to get it back. I am confident when I say that the majority of our members here have felt the same numb, hopelessness that you are feeling. A different flavor maybe, but the same brand all the same. We may be furries, and we may hate and fight with each other most of the time, but if you need people to talk to, there are many kind souls here who would lend an ear.
I'm going through the same thing myself. Hang in there, a new life is on the other side of all this.
My situation is different Nester you are gay and no longer feel the attraction to your mate. I want nothing more than for this nightmare to be over. To know the weight of her body in my arms feel the warmth of her touch and smell the orchid scent of her hair.
*sigh*
Look, I hate being the insensitive ass. That as well as your probably gonna hate what I'm you can going to say. However it seems a healthy douse of truth is needed.
Relationships are always difficult, no matter how smoothly we think things are going. sure its depressing, and yes it often hurts (sometimes in a soul wrenching kind of way). pain like that often makes us... think unclearly.
A good friend of mine once wrote:
People make the mistake of focusing on trying to "find the one" thinking that will make the rest of their life ok. When in fact you have to get your life together first. As my Auntie used to say "Get all your ducks in a row." Once you get your life functional , once you have a some real success that works , then that "someone" will be looking for you. Doesn't THAT suck
please believe i wasn't quite happy reading it either, however it gave me pause for thought. a long pause you might say.
I hated to admit it, but she was right. as great and satisifying as my past girl friends where. It always came to a...uncomfortable ending.
Sure i had good times, and fuck! i didn't wanna see them go and yes it fucking hurts.
But every one of them saw something special in me, that made them want to be with me.
I looked at all the bad relationships I went through. Its funny when you break up like that a. you can think about is how happy you where and all the good things.
Heres the secret, your still very special, your amazing! you live AND BREATH a new day. eve. breath you still take is a sign to let you know your alive. you may be alive and in pain but alive none the less.
you DESERVE none the less than someone who thinks your amazing as well. believe me man, when you get through this, your gonna be a wiser, tougher man.
you will live on, none of us thought we would survive through bad relationships, but we do.
now....
at this point you got two choices, you can be in pain, or get over it.
i choose the path of pain, regret it every single time. Just remember, even without her your still worth something, you still have more to contribute to the world.
And, eventaully your gonna find someone who is worth loving and loves you back just for being you, because you are awesome.