Furry-Within

Dammit really? All you do is top other people in RPs, even go out and do it exactly as they want it every time and what happens when you're in the mood to be submissive....no one wants to do it.

That's my problem...I go all out on people because well...that's just how I am, I want others to be satisfied when the RP is over, and that's just fine but no one ever wants to return the favor when it comes full circle. It's always "I can't do that" or "I'm not in that kind of mood" or even  "That's too hardcore for me" "I mean shit...is it honestly that hard to act a bit predatory to a poor innocent character? Apparently the census says it is...

I don't know what to do, I dom and dom and dom and fucking dom again but get nothing in return, and when I do.....ya let's not even go there because we've all had the "Moans and cums" Really? Fucking really? It's like shoot me now because my god what the fucking hell is going on, I just want to stab something .___. 

And that Ladies and Gentlemen is what really grinds my Gears at 12:30 in the fucking am .___.

-Pecks the fox's lips and then smacks his ass-

Being dom all the time does get boring, and I can say the same for anyone who is a sub all the time.

Its best to mix things up.

But having a room full of doms, or the other way around, never works because someone is going to have to play the bitch.

*sighs and rubs eyes* I'm just tired of always having to be the one that has to top the other, it's fun, the power is great but....damn >.<

damn 12:30 am seems to be the special hour for me doesn't it? I mean holy shit I love the guy but omg what the hell... Okay from others online I can understand, because a lot of the RPers think that *cums* *Moans* or even *Enters sits* is a good RP post, my Inserts fully detailed RP post here always scares them off...that or I just get one word back and it's like fuck you I need it..but not that bad. BUT back to the point, the one person I  know I can go to for anything...my mate....pulls the same excuse he always does when it's his turn to be top for a change x.x "I'm really tired" or "I'm sorry, I've lost the mood v.v" >.< really? I just cant seem to fucking win >.<

HA YOU THOUGHT I WAS GONE >: )

You know what grinds my gears in the late hours of the night, finally getting a mother fucking rp and all of a sudden the mother fucking phone rings, so I type "Shit fuck, sorry my phones ringing brb >.<"  And I go to the said ringing phone right? Okay so like I say hello? And mind you this is about 11:30ish pm at night eastern time and you know what.....MOTHER FUCKING TELEMARKETER...on my damn cell phone, mind you this is one of those gay ass prepaid phones....and I'm broke as fuck right now....so I can't really afford to be getting these fucking calls on my phone which has a very low amount of minuets and howmanytimestodoIhavetofuckingtellthemleavemefuckalognjhalhghasklgh !!!! D:<!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Which at this point he begins to rage a the telemarketer and thus hangs up like a fucking baus* BUT ANYWAY this whole process took about four minuets maximum and you know what....they logged out two minuets AFTER I said brb.... fox can't get a rp for shit these days x.x

In Aus, we have a government initiative where you can add your phone number to a registry that protects your line from being called by telemarketers. Jus' Saiyan.

We have one in Canada too, never had to use it though because I don't register my phone with *anything.*  If it asks for my phone number to buy/sign up for something I don't buy/sign up for it.

Mmk so it has to be late in the night somewhere right?

So anyway...what is love exactly? Well....

Love is a normal chemical reaction in the brain which influences judgement and how we act around people. We make bad decisions, we think that this person will love us always, we even go out of our way to spend every dime we have....well this 'natural high' only lasts about two years....normally.

NOW what happens after that two years is the make it or break it stage of any relationship that suffered through the intoxicating troublesome high. From that point on we start to notice the little things we may not have noticed before say like....left shavings in the sink, toothpaste is squeezed from the middle, or even the toilet seat is constantly up.a(for the wimminz out there ;3) Now these might not be that much of a big deal or they might...Communication is key people....it comes in different forms....

So...my issue is this....

WHY THE FUCK IS IT SO HARD TO PICK UP THE DAMN PHONE AND SEND A SIMPLE TEXT??!!

Ooooooh so you're to high and mighty to text me? OH I see I have to do ALL the fucking texting waste MY minuets for what? To get a one word answer that solves nothing? My limit for no contact with a long distance relationship is a full on 48 hours even hell add another 24 on that. But an entire week?  A full 7 day fucking calender week? Look I'm patient and all, I understand you have a job sewing, I understand your family wants time with you....but that does NOT excuse a full week of no contact and when I text the guy? Oh no it's "Well I was busy, you could have texted me?" Okay for those that don't know..I do ALL the texting I've blown through well over 200 USD on phone cards alone the cheap ones since I have perma double minuets for my tracfone.

Don't get a fucking attitude with me when I prove you're in the wrong either, oh you think the silent treatment is going to work on me? No no no no no....he's on thin ice people.

So all in all..you know what really grinds my gears in the late hours of the night? Your lover who goes out until 6am with 'friends' on a school night, who after two years refuses to get a camera or a web cam because of lack of funds even though you've had several short term jobs and are buying sex toys with the money you supposedly don't have and well....shady ass mates who only want you around to abuse you and make you feel like you're in the wrong every time. Disrespect me? After I've given you the world? After 2 years of turning down offers? 2 years of celibacy? My so called lover is what grinds my gears this evening.... 

There are plans you can get that have free national texting...way less than $200.

I know...but...I don't plan on keeping this tracfone for very much longer

I was thinking the same about the phone.

But more importantly, it sounds like this guy is kinda a jerk Fawkes. I'm sorry, but does he really seem worth it? Think a year down the road. If he's just going to be where he's at now, leaving you unhappy, why stay with him?

Being on your own again wouldn't mean the end. You can do it.

It's been awhile, and meant to post this last night but fell asleep.

Do you want to know what really grinds my gears in the late night? People that think relationships are a joke and fake friends that just take from you.

So what gives? This one isn't just about relationships this time, don't worry. I had this crazy idea that relationships were a two way street, you know the whole give some, take some deal. Not just that, but also about communicating with each other. Did this change? Are we just supposed to bottle everything up and keep issues hidden just to make the other person happy?

I for one do not think so, I'm a good person, I have a good sense of humor and over the years as I grew and matured mentally, I have also learned to take criticism about my own person, nobody is perfect as we all make mistakes along the way. So here my main concern for the first topic; Why would you play me? I'm not naming names but you know for whom you are. Some of the older users will remember that I only dated males, well I recently decided to give women another chance.

I listened to your problems, I asked follow up questions to prove I was paying attention. Every single day I would ask how you were doing and if anything of interest happened at all. I openly confided in you and was willing to stay up all night if you just needed to talk and vent on someone. I was nothing but open arms and ears. So why fucking play me like I'm just a game to you? You called me your mate and I even asked you to clarify, you said "I mean Boyfriend silly." So that made us an item. So what does that really mean to you? I guess it means something different for me. Keep playing this game, go ahead, you'll find that I'll become quickly fed up and just leave, maybe that's what you want? I'm not a game, I'm a human being with feelings and you are showing me why I gave up on women years back.

Did the concepts of friendship change over the years? Last time I checked friends stood up for each other, if one friend was in trouble then you would think some of the others or at least one of them would defend you, when you have done the same oh so many times for them in the past. I'm a good friend, I'm the one that will always pick your drunk ass up from the bar late at night or early in the morning and take you home. I'm the friend that will jump in and defend you if someone is slandering you behind your back. If your girl or guy is fucking around behind your back or tries to come on to me, I'll let you know right away and decline that persons offer.

So why can't I get the same back? Why do I always get the " Oh yeaaaah, nah." or the "Eeeehhhh, don't really want to do that." Of course the other excuses we have all heard. Friendship used to mean something in this world. I wasn't perfect before, I dropped the ball a few times, made mistakes when drinking. But like I said, I grew up and got my shit together. Just...what the fuck, I never asked for anything in return, just for people to stick up and defend me one in a while when I need the help.

I don't know what's going on, perhaps I'm not relationship material, perhaps I'm too compassionate, to eager to please my mate and make people laugh when they need one. I don't know, just really grinds my gears in the late night ya know?